Breaking Shells, Finding Wings

“If you embrace the truth, it will release more freedom into your life.” John 8:32, TPT

Words spewed between my mother and me like lava erupting from a volcano. I sought refuge in my bedroom, but my familiar surroundings only heightened the intensity of the emotional tumult I felt in my soul. Tears streamed down my 12-year-old face, and I thought, Do I belong here? Where are you, God? It’s me, Shelley! I felt alone. Maybe I should just run away and never come back. Would they miss me?

Feeling numb, invisible, and invalid made me want to disappear. But somewhere inside I felt there was more to life despite the void haunting me. Physically, I lacked nothing, but emotionally I was starving for parental love, affection, and support. 

Revisiting childhood memories feels kinda like putting a jigsaw puzzle together with missing pieces. My parents were the missing pieces.

One of my earliest family memories is a beach trip we made in 1973 when we lived in Okinawa. The ocean’s waves danced across t…

Beyond the Veil

She studied her face in the mirror. Her skin glistened like a newlywed bride showcasing a jubilant smile. Her joy came from the depth of knowing who she was and whose she was. Her eyes reflected the beauty and worth like that of rare coins.
It was only a year ago she looked in the same mirror and saw a different person marked by shame, guilt, and deep sadness. But something wonderful and exciting happened to her this past year. It was a life-changing experience.
As a young girl, she dreamed of being wooed and romanced by the perfect handsome gentlemansomebody who would treat her like a queen. She longed to be swept off her feet by a man who loved and desired her more than life, and who relished every moment with her and gave her his undivided attention. She wondered if such a man existed.
One day, she sat quietly with her eyes closed pondering her life and saw her knight in shining armor. He was dressed in a dazzling pure white robe and riding a white horse. She was wearing a stunn…